It is amazing how time can just fly when you’re swamped with work and things that need to get done. I swear I’ve blinked and it’s August already, I’m not even sure what happened to July. I know we had crappy weather, and I was sick for a good portion of it, but really where the hell did it go?!

In the long run, I did accomplish a few things. I managed to get my RP site started, with my whole two members. LOL. www.sswars.com/forums which of course is hosted off of my book’s website. I think it was appropriate considering the book is based on a group of RPs that were run back in the nineties and some of the new millenium. (God I’m old). The book itself is also back! http://www.lulu.com/content/paperback-book/secret-service-wars-of-secrets-and-shadows/7473327 Hella long link for a book to be listed on but of course you can just click it. I say back because this is the second edition of my novel. It’s longer and better, because it had an editor of course….lol.

Most of my time was absorbed with editing the book and getting it all ready to go though I’ve been working on getting other things done, not much has gotten done.  I’m working as steadily as I can on a new novel, the second part of my series, and I’ve not even finished chapter one. Starting the book is always the worst I find. I’d like to have it done by the end of the year, beginning of next year, but really that’s a pipe dream.

I’m finding myself thinking a lot lately, in the shower, before I go to sleep, on the bus and a lot of the time this friend or rather former friend of mine comes to mind. I use to joke with her telling her she was the best friend because no matter how hard I pushed she didn’t leave. Yet since she’s left I’ve felt a lot of different emotions and more recently I’ve felt a lot of anger towards her. Now though when I’m calmer and less upset over the whole situation I can’t help but laugh. She was my best friend, when the times were good. At least good for me. When my life got rocky when I felt weaker and desperate, she walked away. Three months of “I’m thinking…” and I’m done waiting for the results of this thought.

I wish her the best. Now and in the future. Yet standing on the edge of a cliff with not bridge to the other side is pointless. I’m going for a walk, away from the cliff and I’m going to see where life takes me. It’s obvious by this point she doesn’t want me on that side. Because if she did she would have only had to ask.

Anyway, I best get back to work, break is over and there’s still a lot to be done.

Today is cleaning day, kind of like a bit of spring cleaning, though I think Spring cleaning is something that will need to be done eventually right now this is only kind of like spring cleaning.

I’m going to be working on a few things around the apartment and with my writing today so it’ll be a busy day. The main thing to work on is making sure my room is nice and bright and clean again so that I can work in it for the next little while… there’s a lot to get done and I’m not doing it at the current rate I seem to be in.  I think it might be part of the blah or funk I’ve been in. Who knows.

My posts seem to get shorter. There’s just nothing really thoughtful or really inspirational to write, there’s nothing really happening other than a little cleaning and a whole lot of writing. I have a book to finish a re-write on and an editor that’s waiting on me. Mind you this editor who is a friend of mine is the most wonderful person I know. I have to thank her greatly because she never asked me for anything, she never expected anything or thought what might be in it for her and she is adhering beautifully to my deadline of the end of this month.

I couldn’t ask for a better friend than I have with her. ^_^; Thanks Kirsten if you read this <3 I really do appreciate your help and dedication.