So right now I’m watching So You Think You Can Dance Canada, while Role Playing with my friend and I’m finding myself a little antsy.
I recieved the proof copy of my novel and am looking it over, I find that really the only things I need to correct are the contractions which are not really a big deal, more of a personal preference. So that’s always a plus. Sadly it’s making me want to have book two written already, yet I know that’s going to take a lot of dedication and time.
And I just realized my cellphone is in my room.
Anyway since it’s ‘cooler’ out tonight I’m hoping to head to bed early and get a good nights sleep.
So not much content for this post, just a quick hello, and good night.
Sheyna
Archive for August, 2009
Princess in Waiting
Tuesday, August 18th, 2009 0
Posted in The Long Road |
Sunshine, Lollipops and Daisies
Sunday, August 16th, 2009The past few weeks I’ve spent a bit of time working on my art a lot less than my writing. Which has actually been a little relaxing considering. It’s not easy work popping out a novel, and I do hope to write my second novel within the rest of this year and before the summer of next year. So I can once again spend the summer, just relaxing rather than writing.
Lately though, I’ve been noticing more and more the little things I do that I shouldn’t do. Including placing commas where they NEVER belong or where they are just a few words off. I’m trying to work on that but I think it has a lot to do with the fact that I write fast and never think much about the process in which I’m doing it. Or just because I don’t think when I write.
Anyway, I’ll be working on a few of the pages here, and over the next few weeks, I plan to do a few more updates to my sites. With some really good luck maybe I’ll be able to move forward and start doing some advertising for my novel.
You can find a link to my novel under “Published Works”. Check it out, purchase a copy! It’s worth the read.
Sheyna
Posted in The Long Road |
The ARGH Factor
Friday, August 7th, 2009There are some days in life where all you want to do is scream. I want to scream right now. I want to scream at the top of my lungs then close myself up in a dark room until I’m calm again. Right now I feel so frustrated with people.
I can find times where I enjoy watching, studying and interacting with different people but right now just isn’t one of those times. The slightest incident is triggering me to react in a manner that probably isn’t for the best. Right now my boyfriend and I are working together. We work at the same law firm in different areas… I also work with my roommate who again works in a different area. Now there are no problems between my roommate and I. We don’t often interact. Ok, sometimes we do… but generally it doesn’t happen often.
Right now though, I’m finding myself hitting a brick wall because when the boyfriend complains about work, I can’t agree with him, because I honestly think he’s wrong. I honestly think what he believes to be right, is wrong. I don’t know how to react to that. Or how to really get around a discussion about it. I’ve told him before that we see things on different levels and really we’re just going to have to agree to disagree on the subject but it always comes up. In fact everything always comes up. No matter what we’re talking about we end up talking about his work, his career ideas, his goals, his art, his future… I just sometimes wonder why he doesn’t want to hear about mine… Anytime we talk about me, he cuts in with something about him. He says it’s him relating to the story, to me it feels like, telling him about me, was boring him and so he’s moved on.
It’s hard, I keep trying to have discussions with him but they’re never serious, I don’t know if he knows how upset I am because I don’t know how to tell him… and I don’t want to upset or hurt him. He’s wonderful, really he is, and I know he cares but sometimes I just feel lost. Anytime I bring up issues I’m having with friends or when I’m really upset it’s like he shuts down. He doesn’t know how to respond, and he just shuts down.
My roommate is currently going on dates, and I find myself jealous. I don’t get to experience that much. I don’t get asked if I want to go somewhere. I get “What do you want to do?” and the assumption that every weekend I’m spending it doing something with him. Or that I’m sleeping over. Lately I haven’t been sleeping over because lately it’s made me feel uncomfortable.
I don’t know, I think I’m wearing myself down and I’m finding myself facing the choice of fixing it or running away and I don’t want to run away… I want to fix it, but it just feels like I can’t get any fight out of him. Nothing…
He’s so proud of himself, and I’m happy he has confidence and security but some days I wish he’d just talk to me… and more so listen… and provide input. Don’t relate, provide input that helps in a situation.
Maybe I just want to date my fictional character Kyle… because really he’s perfect in everyway. Actually he’s clingy and self doubting a little but other than that, he’s perfect!
Posted in Life, The Fork In the Road |
Time Warp
Wednesday, August 5th, 2009It is amazing how time can just fly when you’re swamped with work and things that need to get done. I swear I’ve blinked and it’s August already, I’m not even sure what happened to July. I know we had crappy weather, and I was sick for a good portion of it, but really where the hell did it go?!
In the long run, I did accomplish a few things. I managed to get my RP site started, with my whole two members. LOL. www.sswars.com/forums which of course is hosted off of my book’s website. I think it was appropriate considering the book is based on a group of RPs that were run back in the nineties and some of the new millenium. (God I’m old). The book itself is also back! http://www.lulu.com/content/paperback-book/secret-service-wars-of-secrets-and-shadows/7473327 Hella long link for a book to be listed on but of course you can just click it. I say back because this is the second edition of my novel. It’s longer and better, because it had an editor of course….lol.
Most of my time was absorbed with editing the book and getting it all ready to go though I’ve been working on getting other things done, not much has gotten done. I’m working as steadily as I can on a new novel, the second part of my series, and I’ve not even finished chapter one. Starting the book is always the worst I find. I’d like to have it done by the end of the year, beginning of next year, but really that’s a pipe dream.
I’m finding myself thinking a lot lately, in the shower, before I go to sleep, on the bus and a lot of the time this friend or rather former friend of mine comes to mind. I use to joke with her telling her she was the best friend because no matter how hard I pushed she didn’t leave. Yet since she’s left I’ve felt a lot of different emotions and more recently I’ve felt a lot of anger towards her. Now though when I’m calmer and less upset over the whole situation I can’t help but laugh. She was my best friend, when the times were good. At least good for me. When my life got rocky when I felt weaker and desperate, she walked away. Three months of “I’m thinking…” and I’m done waiting for the results of this thought.
I wish her the best. Now and in the future. Yet standing on the edge of a cliff with not bridge to the other side is pointless. I’m going for a walk, away from the cliff and I’m going to see where life takes me. It’s obvious by this point she doesn’t want me on that side. Because if she did she would have only had to ask.
Anyway, I best get back to work, break is over and there’s still a lot to be done.